August 29, 2011

my voice...

I haven't had anything to blog about.Why? Because my voice has seemed to left me. I feel beaten down. There are things I'm dying to say... to talk about to vent about and I can't say them.I've lost my voice... Where did my voice go?

I used to have opinions about EVERYTHING..and ANYTHING.. and now... I'm just "meh". If I have an opinion, I'm afraid to voice it. I'm worried of offending you...or you and especially you. I'm worried about giving certain people one more thing to use against me.

How do you stop worrying about what people think of you when it can affect your life? When it can be used against you.?


Johanson Family said...

I think we all feel this way. How will friends feel, how will family feel, will I lose my job, what will happen if I am just ME? I think we have to get creative in how we deliver our voice and as long as you are true to yourself, then who cares what others think.

Krista said...

Oh girl, I hear ya even if it's not in your voice.

It's tough. I agree with Janette 100%, though.

And know that I won't be offended no matter what you post. I know it may not be much coming from me but I hope I can be one less person you have to worry about.

I have this quote in my daughter's room and maybe it's fitting right now:

"Sometimes you have to just jump and build your wings on the way down."

I've posted things, some very personal and raw things, and sometimes the feedback has been amazing and then a few times I was a little disappointed, but either way, I felt better when I realized that my blog is for me. It's my space to be me and to release so I can breathe. My true friends and family already know me and will love and respect me for that, even if they don't always agree with me.

Anonymous said...

Good question. That's a hard one to answer. I'm in the 'try not to offend anyone' camp. I was brought up to think of others feelings' first, so I still have a hard time saying what I think, too. I think both Janette and Krista's answers are perfect though. I struggle with this, too, and may never get to the point where I no longer care what others think. I hope you get your voice back though. You're a wonderful blogger. :o)